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hai apa kabar? lama nggak ketemu. kamu sekarang lagi apa? tambah besar ya kamuu, terakhir aku liat kamu didepan rumah, rambutmu tambah panjang. nggak kamu potong?. ohya liburan ini kamu kemana aja?.

aku tadi malem mimpi kamu, nggak enak lagi mimpinya, makanya aku langsung tulis ini, aku nggak bisa speak sama kamu. lagi lagi karena aku takut. maaf, mungkin yang kemarin itu terakhir kalinya aku liat pupil mu dan kamu liat pupil ku, itupun cuman sepersekian detik. buat saat ini mungkin aku bukan yang terbaik buat kamu, mungkin nanti, atau enggak. kamu baik baik ya, pilih cowo yang bener, nggak kaya aku yang nggak jelas. haha. becanda ._. at the last, stay in whiteside and wait me if you want too ;) bye nicecheeks *smooch* *from far* xxx.

Jeo.

let's set fire to the rain!

See you

working

Freedom Of Expression

Lord, I don't know which way I am going
Which way the river's going to flow
It just seems that upstream I keep rowing
Still got such a long way to go

And that light hits your eyes
I know I swear we'll find somewhere
The streets are paved with gold

Bullets fly split the sky
But that's alright sometimes sunlight comes streaming through the holes

you think you know me?

yep, im not better than any of you.

im just an overexcited kid who want to be a 'real' person

to feel the wind

to get my bestfriend, partnerships

peoples attention

lead the major followers

as a man.

tea

spouse to date

spouse? sorry, girlfriend at beginning i mean.

but what i've got ?

she ignore me, she wouldn't ignore me, i leave her alone.

i think... better she being my best friend girlfriend. the boy who better than me of course.

i expect, she would be happy with him. of course, so cold so cold.

Relax. lets have a cup of tea while i thinkin thinkin and THINKIN about people i care about.

of course SHE IS.

be patient

argh, EXPLODE EXPLODE!

HEART ABSTRACTURE

stuck in the momment.

I dont know WHY, she being SHY.

space melting

Yeah, like ICE CREAM

I try to be calm, look another side.

you dont expect me to be fine

i dont expect you to care.

i found another HOPES, WAYS, IDEAS

hmm~ what do you think? you know me at all?

yet i guess, you never understand what life will be.

but you understand i hope, How can i love when i afraid to fall.

BELIVE IN THE IMPOSSIBLE.

you will find, W letter. W for WIN.

BECAUSE LIFE IS AN ADVENTURE

EXACTLY

QUOTES

Written in graffiti on a bridge in a park
'Do you ever get the feeling that you're missing the mark?'
It's so cold, it's so cold

Written up in marker on a factory sign
'I struggle with the feeling that my life isn't mine'
It's so cold, it's so cold

See the arrow that they shot, trying to tear us apart

Fire from my belly and the beat from my heart

Still I won't let go

Use your heart as a weapon
And it hurts like heaven

On every street, every car, every surface are names
And at the streets arise, I'll be rather insane
Don't let them take control

JEOVAN FILLANDRO, IN GOD I TRUST

Hypnosis

thinkin' of you

When you open my blog,

just... i just wanna tell you, that i miss you so much

everyday i felt like dying without you here... beside me.

Kisah kasih di sekolah

“Tiada masa paling indah
masa-masa disekolah
tiada kisah paling indah
kisah kasih di sekolah”

-cyakelaah

Wasanawarsa kemaren bikin aku kembali ke masa lalu, hmm semacam “time traveler” gitu kali ya. Jadi ini semua berasal dari wasanawarsa pas aku TK, sekitar 9 tahun yang lalu, wew its been a long time ago. Pas dia bilang “bye bye jeo” #aw

Okedeh, aku punya ‘erghm’ first love HALAAH. Namanya A****, selanjutnya kita sebut saja dia, A. orangnya lebih tinggi 3cm dari aku (kalo dulu aku 100cm, dia 103cm kali ya, HELL) rambutnya sepundak, putih, iya sih dia bule. Kalo ngomong pelo “je mamu mamam mapa?” kalo ditranslate “je, kamu makan apa?” susah emang kalo jadi pacarnya. SECARA AKU MASIH TK!

Gimana aku bisa kenalan sama dia?

Awal mulanya di TK Laboratorium (sekarang SWCC mungkin) aku anak pendiem yang ga punya temen, paling aku cuman suka mainan mobil mobilan sendiri (aku gak suka power ranger, mereka alayy 4LaY! hah) nah si A ini sebetulnya murid pindahan dari Surabaya. Gila aja, bu Heni (guruku waktu TK, haha apal ya aku, ya dong) nyuruh si A duduk bareng aku, DUDUK BARENG AKU (sempet sedih, jadi ga bisa main mobil kayak anak psikopat)

Dia nyapa aku duluan, kami kenalan, nah lama kelamaan aku tau kalo dia tinggal 2 blok dari rumahku aww Senangnya!. Pulang sekolah bareng, berangkat juga bareng, makan bareng, duduk bareng, pokonya segalanya jadi bareng si A. sampe kencing juga bareng. Yucks!

Aku belum bilang kita pacaran lho. Kita cuman deket aja. Dan kalo pun aku suka sama dia, paling cuman sukanya anak TK nggak lebih, dan nggak berlebihan

Ini nih saatnya anak TK NYESEK. Kita bertumbuh, sekarang waktunya naik kelas 1 SD (hmm masuk SD aja gak usah pake tes, kalo SMA ribet) si A ini balik ke Surabaya.

Aaaaaaaa gamau gamau, anjrit gue dikasih PHP sama dia! Nggak tanggung jawab lagi! Cialan! Jahanam. Sebagai anak yang masih 7 tahun aku pasrah aja deh. Nggak mungkin kan gue nangis nangis di airport kayak film ADA APA DENGAN CINTA, kebayang anak setinggi 1 meter peluk pelukan di airport ha?! APASIH MAKSUTNYA.

By the way, di TK itu gak ada yang namanya wasanawarsa, yang ada malah PROM NIGHT walah lebih parah. Ya bubar tinggal bubar, ga ada acara nangis nangis.

Yang ada ya cuman kata “babay jeooh *mwah*” dia melakukan kissbye ala kadarnya *nyesek* *galau* *depresi* *frustasi* *minum baygon* *nggak makan 12 bulan*

Yagitu deh. Sekarang dia cuman ada di paradox di cerebellum ku huhh. Kapan kamu balik njel? *ups ketawan, namanya enjel. Sekian.

Malu aku malu
pada semut merah
yang berbaris di dinding
menatapku curiga
seakan penuh tanya:
sedang apa disini?
Menanti pacar, jawabku

RASAH NANGIS BRO :D